I had no idea what color I wanted to paint my nails this morning. Then I saw Steff had posted a very pretty red and while after that Brooke posted one too. I always forget how much I love red. I should really get more, this morning I went through my collection and I've only got 5 red polishes. Anyway, I chose to use Sephora by OPI Curve-aceous today and I just love it. This picture is pre-cleanup though, and kind of blurry. Sorry!!
So.. I'm having a bit of a hard time again lately. Don't bother reading the rest of this post if you don't want to. I have nowhere else where I can get this stuff out. Well, I am going to a counselor but that isn't for another 2 weeks and that seems very far away right now. Anyways, anybody who has read any of my rants before probably knows about my family's problems. I'm trying not to let them bother me too much but it's really hard. Last night I tried talking to my mom and she just got mad and said I'm making up reasons to be offended. She has no idea I overheard her and my stepdad fighting a month or two ago about us. That's when he said that she raised my sisters and I badly. He's been making comments a lot lately about how he "isn't supposed to have kids." Yesterday he was saying that having us around every single day gets old. That really upsets me, I don't feel wanted here. And I can't talk to my dad about anything, because he might call my mom and then she would be really mad at me. She acts like he's such a horrible person, and she is always going on about how we are so lucky to have our stepdad and how we aren't really good enough for him. It makes me feel sick. I keep most of this to myself and I have these mini meltdowns a lot. Then I usually get mad at myself, because I feel like I'm overreacting and I really don't have things that bad. But I can't help it. I really don't know what to do.
It's a double-edged knife, but there's always tomorrow
Oh you know, It's up to you now if you sink or swim,
Just keep the faith that your ship will come in it's not so bad"
That is from a Great Big Sea song (of course) and it makes me feel a lot better. Actually, all of their songs can always cheer me up a bit. I love those guys.
Anyways. I just want to say a huge thank you to all of you who take the time to read what I have to say. The comments you leave always make me smile and I really appreciate it.